the work of a mother.

this week we were luck enough to have raymond for one whole extra day! to me, this was a god send :) ive been struggling alot with morning sickness and i am really tired all the time. poor esme is suffering because every time i go to stand up or do something i end up with my head down a toilet and its really not very fair on her. i try my best, i honestly do but sometimes i just struggle. i seem to remember the whole pregnancy thing being easier first time round.

esme has been extremely difficult for the past few days, shes normally great but over the weekend she seemed to develop some kind of little attitude! ive found that ive been tested in so many ways i haven't felt before but when i get to a point where all i want to do is either break down or get frustrated or angry ive learned in the past year that the best thing to do is just to get on my knees, pray and then take a 5 minute time out and then everything seems to be fine (until the next time). i feel that ive grown so much not only in the past year but in the past month and do you know what, when im having a really rough time, when ive said prayer after prayer and i know im still being tested, theres one thing at never fails to help me progress and be a better mother (even if its only for a moment) this is my safety net.

http://www.youtube.com/mormonmessages#p/search/1/WbYLKVgwztY

i hope you can enjoy it as much as i do. i feel so overwhelmed whenever i watch it <3

i am so thankful for the opportunity i have to be with esme, i love her so much. she is my world. i know shes going to make a wonderful big sister! she teaches me so many things, when im feeling down she never fails to impress me, its like she can sense it. she is so gentle, kind and loving. i am so thankful that i am sealed to her and to my family for time and all eternity.