as i sit here and look at the mess i call my 'living room' i cant help but wonder will my life always be like this? i feel like there is so much getting on top of me and its affecting everything in my life. my attitude towards life, my relationships, my mood. everything. i have so much ironing to do and its begun to get me so down that i now just think that i should become a nudist or something just to cut down on the washing and ironing but the funny thing is that i have the least amount of stuff to be washed and ironed. it seems like there is so much to do and so little time to do it. i dont sleep much anymore, or eat. just because i honestly feel that i dont have the time. when did life become so complicated and busy? does it ever get easier? i had a think about it and i figure if i write it down it may be slightly easier to deal with so here goes.
washing, ironing, putting clothes away, nappy changes, feeds for esme, primary lessons, missionary meals, cooking, cleaning, shopping, bathing, general hygiene, cleaning includes floors, dishes, carpets (hoovering), bed making, windows, bathroom, tending to esme.
these are just a few of the things i feel i need to accomplish on a daily basis. it honestly makes me want to break down and cry sometimes. i know im going to be up in 3 hours with esme and to be honest, i just dont have the energy or sanity to cope :(
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