why? because society said so.

ironing... i hate it. it makes me want to crawl out of my own skin and never return again. why do i have to leave the house with clean, pressed clothes? because society said so. 

washing my hair. the washing of it i dont mind, its the drying, straightening and everything else that goes along with it that i really cant be bothered with. it feels like such a task to wash your hair when you have a demanding 5 month old. why do i do it? because society said i cant go out looking like a stray turkish cat.

keep my house clean. well why cant i just never tidy up. i mean, i do love having a tidy house but its like i spend the day cleaning then i go into a different room for 5 seconds, come back in and the place looks like its been hit by a bomb. its unfair. i dont even know where the mess comes from. its like it actually grows out of the walls or something.

there are so many pressures put on people (especially women) in our society today. there are so many expectations and everyone seems to judge you even if they dont know you. i'll admit i do it myself. if i see someone in  the street and they look like they haven't showered for 6 years and they smell like a dead seahorse i do make judgement. i think to myself 'really, take some pride in yourself'. is that what people think when they look at me? when i dont have the energy to brush my hair and put on some mascara. but its unfair, i feel like as a woman i have to face some weird, messed up stereotype. i have to always have my makeup done, my hair perfectly cut and coloured, nails done and just generally be well groomed all the time. gone are the days when mothers can just go out in jogging bottoms, a holey t shirt and have their hair tied up with spaghetti hanging out it... i want to go out with spaghetti in my hair.

on the up side - me and raymond made some awesome ass bread at 3am this morning. check it out!

yes. it was 3am - thats why i look like this!

raymond and his new found love